Letting Go

It was a great day yesterday; my family is awesome! I'm going to get right to what is on my heart, because I am on a time agenda this morning. Thad preached yesterday and brought up the muslim day of prayer and the events that are unfolding in the end times. I know the end times are at hand and I can see it play out everyday in the world events. But I will have to tell you; that there is a part of me that doesn't want the world to end.

What? Your a child of God and you don't want the world to end so you can go on to Heaven. I love this life and part of me wants to stamp my feet and clinch my hands and shout, "Not Fair!" I want to live and see grandchildren; I want to grow old (and more beautiful with age) and take my last breathe when I'm 100.

I finally stopped trying to shove these feelings down inside and I brought them up before the Lord. He is my Creator and has known all along what has been going on. The children of Israel had God with them and I have lost count of how many times, "they did evil in the sight of the Lord" and then would repent and then slide back again.

The disciples had Christ daily and at the end they deserted Him because they were afraid of death. The feelings I have are normal and I am giving them to the Lord and will allow His Grace to help me grow.

I have freedom in Christ to pour myself out and allow Him to work in me. That's it for today; I'm going outside--I think it's actually cooler this morning.