Missed Apointment

I'm sitting in church several weeks ago and the pastor was telling us that he prayed asking God to send him a divine appointment.  That really struck home with me and that night I prayed asking God to send me a divine appointment.  So Monday comes and goes---nothing--everything same as usual.  

Tuesday comes and what a day!  It was one of those days that you really should have just called in sick and stayed in bed.  Hazardous to your health day!  It started with several crises at work and people upset...which got me crabbing (no, I'm not talking seafood).  By the time lunch came I was really in a not so good place.  I found myself in a little "pod" of women complaining about some things that were going on at work that day.

Then we had a two hour training that is required for "Race to the Top", which we all hate because it has put so much regulation on our teaching--that we really can't teach--because we have to jump through all of these hoops--to get money that we will never see.  We are now required to sit through scheduled training (after work) listening to these talks that are ridiculous---(know I'm crabbing now...but honestly)

Let's just say I really had a sour attitude during the training.  My disposition was not the best and I added fuel to the fire of discontent around me.  Later that night as I'm laying in bed; I heard this:

"You missed me today."

"I missed You; what are you talking about?  You didn't send anyone to me for my "divine appointment".  Nobody came asking me to lead them to You, or wanting some wonderful spiritual advice."

"No, I didn't send you a person---but I placed you in the middle of circumstances.  You had an appointment to let Me shine through you...and you missed it."

I couldn't believe it!  I asked forgiveness and the next day I apologized to my assistant principal for my bad attitude.  See, she was watching people during the training and had commented to me the rudeness of the teachers.  I told her I was one of those and apologized.

I was looking for an experience that God had sent someone else.  But I wasn't there yet; God is dealing with circumstances  for my journey at this time.  It's been painful...but I'm making progress through Christ...slow...but inching forward.