Just Thinking

Several times this week I would try and bring up the server--no deal. Then I'm thinking forces are keeping me from posting.....or maybe the computer was acting up. Just thinking that I'm always trying to read too much into things--maybe?

I wrote on my facebook this morning that I wished the road wasn't so hard to where I need to be; once again wondering if I make things harder than necessary. I know that as a Christian I'm to be joyful and yet this week I'm holding my head as I drive into work. Anybody actually watching would peg me as a candidate for Prozac or rehab; I looked that weary. Why is it so hard or is it really hard?

Therefore, we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us. Hebrews 12:1

I'm not a runner but I know that pacing is critical for a race to be finished. Maybe I'm trying too hard -- thinking too much.

I have fought the good fight; I have finished the race, I have kept the truth.
2 Timothy 4:7

But then again, maybe it's not meant to be easy. Fighting, racing, resisting, being ensnared, these don't sound like the Christian walk is lived from a rocking chair.

Just thinking I'll be able to post every morning next week--if the server is working. I've learned a lot from studying the crucifixion and resurrection this past week. I was struck by the composure of Christ during the trials, beatings, and the actual crucifixion. Composure during the hard times--that would be great!