Remember kaleidoscopes? I loved looking through the hole and turning the handle; watching all of the different shapes and colors come together. It's a lot like my thinking at times; turning and changing. So today come look through my kaleidoscope of thoughts---turn
yellow-brown-gerbils, I was thinking of gerbils this morning and how I could really relate to them. The way they scurry around and that wheel! Have you ever seen a gerbil on the wheel? Round and round at a fast pace; that resembles my life at this time. Everything is going nonstop and it never seems to slow down. Turn--
red-orange-Norman Rockwell, I love to watch the person behind me when I'm driving. I have seen some amazing feats by drivers behind the wheel. This morning a lady was actually eating breakfast--from a bowl--I'm assuming cereal maybe grits? My all time favorite was the man who was actually brushing his teeth - while driving - as I was watching. I enjoy watching people-sometimes catching bits and pieces of their lives as I walk by. I think of Norman Rockwell and relate it to taking a mental picture of people. People that I probably would never see again. Turn--
green-silver-Benjamin,who had a rather large ghost pencil top eraser in his pocket. Benjamin who was totally distracting the group with this large ghost pencil top eraser by pulling it out when he thought I wasn't looking. I held out my hand and the object was deposited. Benjamin, who is a true child, loving anything that is superpower or magical, asking when he could get his favorite ghost pencil top eraser back. Irritated by a thousand irritations today, I answered never. Benjamin, whose eyes filled immediately with unshed tears as he told me again it was his absolute favorite and I relented-told him he could have it tomorrow. The look of pure gratitude made me ashamed. When did I get old? Turn--
black-white obedience, A teacher today got a call that her son-in-law stepped on a bomb in Afghanistan. She was trying to get things together to meet the unknown. I saw her in the room, by herself, another teacher had taken her class. The thought came to me to go in and pray with her. This same thought had come to me with another friend several years ago. Her mother was visiting and had become sick. I went to visit her in the hospital. I knew immediately the Lord wanted me to pray with her; but I resisted. I didn't know her that well, she was a devout Catholic, I was Baptist, I would feel silly. So I didn't and she died a week later. I'll never forget how I felt when she died. I didn't heed to what was expected and now who knows? I still feel that her blood is somehow on my hands. Yes, the Lord forgave me but that doesn't erase the consequences. This time when I heard the same call, I entered her room gave her a hug and prayed over her. Lesson learned but at a price. Turn
2 comments:
Wow...this was a beautiful post. I love your use of the kaleidoscope...very original.
I don't think you should hold yourself personally responsible for having not reached out to that woman who lost her mom...and you listened to that inner voice and made sure you comforted that poor woman. That's what truly matters.
I really enjoyed reading this post. It is very original and creative.
My husband and I were in L.A. awhile back and in the middle of the congested traffic, a woman was putting on eyeliner while driving. It amazes me the things people do behind the wheel.
I agree with Kathryn. You shouldn't hold yourself responsible for that woman's death. If anything, that moment is the moment that you became more aware and is the reason why you didn't resist the urge to pray with your teacher friend this time around.
I loved kaleidscopes when I was a kid too. The shapes and colors were mesmerizing to me.
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